Emman texted her mother He said, “Sorry, I’m in an.” emergency right now. But don’t worry, there’s no self harm. But I need to go to a therapy center. Um, so that’s it message me So we knew there was something wrong. We tried calling her, not answering And then uh the next day we tried calling her again, no more is answering.

So I knew I was in the Philippines, Felly was in Florida. He has pickle ball championship Oh good but he was already in America when that happened, right? But I was waiting here and then on the second day, um I woke up in the morning, there was a message Felly. Uh I have terrible terrible news. I know I already felt weak in the knees I. I said, “Lord, this is it.

” So I called Felly and Felly said, “Uh, Emma’s gone. I got soft, I got cold. And it’s in my brain. Lord, I pray to you every day.” Why? Um, Felly flew right away to LA and then that that’s it. So, we decided to I flew to LA also 2 days after. So, Emman is now in the Philippines. But that’s how we found out. Jessica.

That day that I found out I was in shock. But my therapy is work. Said I don’t have family here. In America all of them. The one that was the most difficult day, probably the most difficult day in my life. Fed me let’s not be public about it yet until let’s get the official coroners report.

No, it will take one or two days. So I was quiet about it. I went to GMA. I was still tiktok that day. Oh, it’s hard. But it’s still better because I’m having fun eh. But it’s hard to hide inside. I can understand the following p the husband died following. Pg You keep it painfully difficult chest But I had to work that whole day and then finally the next day we issued the statement and uh it’s now public.

Yes. I went to 24 pa that night. They said so, Vicky said so besides this Yes, you seemed different that day. If only you knew it was really different me But it helped me that I was out of the house. I would have been worse if I’m here inside the house. Kim, so sorry but so you’ve always known that there is will this happen to Eman?  She was diagnosed with uh her PTSD and her being bipolar about uh 6 years ago, 5 years ago during the pandemic.

Uh during the pandemic there was an attempt on her attempted on her life. No this was again we were keeping the secret but now it’s out in the open. No um the first the first few months of the pandemic Let’s lock down hard. Eman attempted and the hospital non 48 hours before you get a room and Emman and I were in the emergency room waiting for a room.

It’s funny because uh I didn’t know what to do. I was praying and praying and praying in the room and then I was reading the Bible to her.  I was reading the book of Psalms. She was uh recuperating. He’s a bit like that dizzy Ah, anyway, he was there in his bed and I was reading the book of sums to her constantly reading.

I thought irritated because Mhm. But apparently that made an impact. I’ll tell you. I’ll read you another letter.  Okay.  These letters give me comfort.  Yes. Yes. Go ahead.  This is from her. She was seeing this guy uh Americano. Sam  in the midst of my grief while I mourned that day alone me I got this.

I don’t know Lord help me How can it be deleted it’s sick I got this letter. from Sam Watson. He’s an American friend of Eman. They’re very close. I have a story to tell you. First and foremost, I can’t imagine yours devastation and your family is in mine prayers. I want to say with 100% sincerity that you are an incredible father.

When I first met Emma in person, we started talking about mental health and the various times we had during our childhood. She explained a lot about her growing up and what her life was like. She got into the experiences you gave talking about going to your races and how she always thought it was so cool that someone could do that wanting even to become an athlete herself.

Saying he told others about me. She explained to me that she had many many struggles including after her first attempt she was hospitalized she talked about how one of the reasons she thought it was going to be okay were you coming in and reading to her my reading was making an impact I don’t know she reminisced on those points at her weakest how she felt at a sense of family that really loved her she talked about the sense of community you gave her through your agency when she was embracing social media.

She called me after a motorcycle accident and talked about how much you meant to her. She spoke about all the times and experiences you gave her. Yours kindness to animals, your kindness to others, your hardships and overcoming them. She truly valued them. I can’t imagine what you’re going through. I’m so sorry but I feel you deserve those moments because she really really did love you He doesn’t tell me those because they are young when they don’t express but he tells everyone how good I am be aware Take your time, Kim. But you know, it

gave me comfort. Tissue here, Kim. It gave me comfort, Jessica that I got letters on that day. What are the Lord’s assurances? Lord that you’re a good father. Eman had purpose. His two years in social media it’s like what, it’s like a meteor. The power of the fire. Too much. A lot inspired. A lot of people were happy.

The many She was a fireball. Fireball. Yes. But we know about fireballs meteors also die. Quickly. I am like your meteorites once you showed me He’s like meteorites.  It gave me a meteorite. That’s it by the way you had the real meteorite in life. And Eman always surprises me with that eh. Because I’m a born again Christian.

Eman Woke you know I’m late became born again e. Born became I was born again in 2013. It’s big those are my children. So it became very woke Eman. Jenzy because now you are not that can be said. And then Eman’s very woke up. That’s very leftist. But there is a call what’s up girl dad girl dad What is that? girl daddy? The one you are a dad for yours girls. It’s like that. Yes.

And you were talking about Eman. Eman I also get nervous when posting always, Jessica ah although I am happy for him, no I know what to say. Surprised I’m in those posts. Sometimes ah as long as I say otherwise it will be bashed. Oh that’s it being bashed and resisted. Normally when we bash we get bashed, quiet just let it pass.

This not against That’s her style. And the last thing that surprised me this last thing he did was surprising. What did he do K? He lost it. That surprised everyone. That’s it most surprising of all. And again she did it with what you as I said no ah worldwide news eh. And you know that day she died she was trending worldwide.

A man tianza. Sometimes I’m surprised and I see my name trending e. I said, “What did my children do?” know I’m not that. Why?  Yeah.  Good you can talk about her in the past tense. Because to me if there is died, it’s hard to talk about that person in the past tense. The one that’s gone. But you  looks like you can already do that. Ha.

This interview is actually therapeutic. Um I like talking about it because um it gives me comfort and uh despite all this and despite all the hurt I still have peace because I know that uh I’m the Lord.  It’s your faith no  yeah if not for my faith I don’t know where I’m going going to be but it is mine faith and the faith has not wavered.

I did ask him a few questions. But my faith in him is the same. I continue to bless him and praise him when times are hard  m  and when times are good. Now I’m in the dark tunnel. I continue to praise the Lord. Thank you Lord. That’s all gives me comfort.  But Kim, it must have been very hard to see how she took her life.

Yeah. That’s why we decided not to do anything What did we decide to cremate? You know, when I think of these things, um how am i So I I want to I want to think of just the beautiful things. I want to think of how beautiful my daughter was, how smart she was. This grim details. I can’t wait for that.

I give it to the Lord that. Lord, I don’t want anymore. yes  even if that’s what we were sent pictures, we were told by the coroner in the states, “Would you like to see uh Emma Eman in her state?” Feddy and I decided the whole family decided we’d like to remember her in her beautiful uh self. We didn’t want to see that pictures.

Some parents want to see I don’t. Yes. So what’s left in me memory is the beauty and the advocacy and the fire and the passion and the funnyess. Ah, my son’s Tagalog. Oh I’m laughing at that. Until now dead here he is. I’m still laughing. I’m still laughing now over and over again me to my son e. It’s strange. It’s great eh. It’s great.

Even if it’s hard he. That’s what Ayaban’s appeal is. She was so herself. Yes. Yes. I watch him now and laugh I was with him while I was crying at the same time. But she did leave a lot. Oh my gosh. of memories. Huh? I would say it’s a pity what she could have turned into but the I know he left a lot showing what he is and what he has right Kim? What is your plan? Kim as a family? Um, I’m happy because My two children are here at Elana’s here and it’s the first time that she came back since that Palestine thing.

Um, and then Hoses here as well. Uh, so we’d like to spend I’ll continue to go and leave while the children are here I. I want to spend time with my kids and with Felly and spend quality time. After two days that hill we to Emaning we and you know what i’m thankful for? Eman is dead but the Lord gave me 19 beautiful years.

Not only be it. The Lord gave Eman to millions of people in those 19 years. There are many my son wants more For that alone, I’m thankful. Yes. It hurts to be based but 19 years the one that was given to me Given to world. I’m proud of my mother. Yes.  And the light that she had. Yes. Yes. Is it Kim? Yes.

Those are not equal your son showed Nothing. Nothing. My gosh. If only he knew. I’m sure he already knows that. Yes. Oh  What gives you comfort aside from the fact that she did leave a lot of memories?  I know that the Lord loves Eman. Despite all the circumstances in after his death, Lord loved that more eh.

And uh I know that a time will come that I will be with my em comes and I know that everything will be okay.  She was so pure no.  Yeah. She was so kind. You know what I’m going to tell you. Ah, my father gave it to me. nag that gift to his grandchildren once a year.  Hmm. That can’t be a gift even how much no matter what for the whole year when it’s Christmas, that’s their gift they save that for their education so It’s really big for a few years 3 years ago Emma introduced me to no ah pap grandpa gave me a Christmas gift it’s quite big good I said so happy for you

you know i gave naya alicia this much i gave the driver this much Everything was given away when it was gifted by his grandfather A gift from his grandfather. Quiet just me I said, “Eman, I’ll keep this a secret between the two of us.” okay? Because when your mother finds out, you will be soaped up.

But I’d like to say that I’m proud of you. The son is so kind I. That’s how kind it is. He is that good. So a little kindness because Eman was kind. And you know my son hangs out with you he is in our house there hanging out in the back with those that’s my housemate with those her friends are here she grew up my friends were with me.

dear that all my kids love that nearest And you know we have cars, we love that grab. He likes to do something because he wants to go to that nail alone Messing around. Not really People know that’s my son. thought they are luxurious. Not the luxury that is Eman’s beautiful clothes. hand me His mother put down the things he bought what’s that all okay-ukay? Sin-style he. Yes.

That’s a lot of jewelry ‘ ba. It’s all fake. Purchased at I just bought it. It is said we said she was going to go to GMA ball. He made clothes from the kamuning I think that was done. The white one. That white Yes. Ah, sorry about the designer. But I didn’t he didn’t tell me if who is it? Full of jewelry. I said, “Eman, that’s so obviously fake.

Papa, can you just allow me to be myself?” My wife lent me the real thing, it’s real jewelry because I’m going there fake ones, that’s how she is, eh. Okay, that’s a queen too. Different class, right? Kim, did they say, “It comes in stages and waves.”  Yeah.  As of now, you are on stage That stage started my questioning,  questioning,  questioning.

Lord, my prayer, Lord, what is it? That. And then uh I had a little resentment, anger. Anger. Yes. To myself, to the situation. I complained. Lord, he takes that that’s right. And then I had a uh now nasa I accept Ah I accept the happened I know he’s gone. But what if I remember the past? our memories when I walk in those place I know it.

I was taken out by because it was my friends a few days ago so they don’t have F non. We went to a hotel in BGC. The food is delicious here. All right. When I walked in the lobby I remembered I do the GMA ball. red is there carpet there I walked Eman for the first time when you remember something I’m going to cry, but you’re okay suddenly you remember something Let’s interview you, we’ll laugh earlier but when someone comes memories hurt why do I allow myself to cry because Yeah,  it’s healthy.

Yeah. That’s it. It comes in waves. Yes. That’s it anger down on those who tortured your child. They are bullies to him. I’m not angry You don’t have that. Even with the nanny who abused him. It’s the nanny that’s probably how it was raised. That’s how it was raised. Umm I’m fine. Eman has many nannies. That’s four nannies. Three.

Texted I have the two. I said, “Guys, dear you and Eman huh? Ah, probably you are probably being bullied there your province Let me see you my message.” It’s not you. Oh So that’s the one. Yes. You don’t anymore that’s fine. Not anymore. Yes. He already knows that’s it. The one eating him now his conscience and the neighbors he.

I can’t name it but I know it is known that’s who he is. But again uh even the comments on social media painful Do you have any answers? Yes. Sometimes the Bible is still used that’s it I call them evangelical bullies eh. Yes. Hmm.  But again Eman’s motto is a little kindness. Even to them being bullied until now, we still show a little kindness.

That little one is from him kindness. That’s her life. She was a little kind everyday. Everyday she was kind of Go to Tony Toxan. He said Tony Kim came somehow grabbed. I said, “That’s how he is. He likes it that tricycle e. Going to Robinsons. Not because he just wanted to that’s what he is.

But Eman was a little kind everyday. And uh if I’m a little kind today, Eman is alive in my heart.  That gives me comfort. Reverse right? You inherited from your son. You know Evan because he looks like his mother it’s his physically. But that’s a habit. That’s my habit. I’m crazy too. How crazy we are about that. She had the best of both of you.

The best of both. Yes. She had academics mind of the mom. She had the looks of the mom. But she had my craziness. That’s just his craziness a bit exceed I didn’t get to that point. Besides the people skills. That riding a tricycle, the one grabbing. That’s you. Yes. I inherited that habit. Okay.

I hope we can do something for you Bait. No, this interview is good. This interview is good. I am having fun. Um, again, I don’t want to be alone. Because if I’m alone, I’m sad. Too much. And be able to talk about Eva this way. what is that It’s beautiful. You you are beautiful make me what you give me comfort too. Does it help to just think about it? just imagine she’s looking down on you? Yes.

I think of that everyone is happy where is she Yes. You know I talk to the Lord all the time when I pray I tell the Lord, “Lord, tell Emma that I love her.” And I’m sure he knows. Yes. We’ll get over this. uh yeah  in the Lord’s time, in our time, we just have to grieve. I don’t want to ask anymore but maybe you have something else you want to tell.

Ah, I just want it to those who love Eman Eman is a very kind child. She was uh brave despite the fact that there is he was transported. He didn’t show that. He resisted. She was very authentic what is authentic saying But despite those two traits, Eman was also kind. She did everything with kindness.

Now Emman is gone just be a little kind everyday. And when when when you’re kind today, Eman will live in her heart and that will give me comfort as well. Yes.  Message him Kim. Dad loves you very much. Do you talk to her in Tagalog? I’m not understood. English for the audience let’s I will sleep. Thank you.

You know that started from the beginning that’s Eman in the media. I entered there Because I used to have a vlog during the pandemic. Yes. She was so young then. This was 5 years ago. Talking I wake up in the middle of night Well, tell me what’s so exciting? unsettling unsettling he will say ah that’s our content down there That started tagalog tagalog but ah eman papa loves you so much mama love you so much and again you surprised us with this last thing that you did just know that I will see you soon Not not too soon, but we’ll see you uh when our time comes and uh we can’t wait for

that day because we’ll be with you again. And thank you for the 19 years that uh you’ve given papa and mama Jose and Aliana. We may not have shown you as much love when you were alive but you knew we love you so much  I’ll just hug you again.  She continues to live. Yes.  Thank you, Jessica.  Thank you. Thank you, Kim.